Things are going down

Wow it has been forever since i have updated on here lol sorry well now things have changed and ill let you all know whats going on. Chris is here and he has a job now so that is looking up but he wants to find a better paying job to make more money cause well we need it. we wrote a list already of people we need to buy for for christmas and that is a big list lol. i glad that chris has a job but when hes home its like he exspects me to be his friggen maid seriously not friggen happening his mommy may have done it but i am not. he has not cooked or did the dishes since hes been here . yesterday i wasnt feeling si good and he knew that yet i spent 6 hours doing his fucking laundry when he got home from work he didnt even ask if i needed help or even say thank you for me doing it for him he went in the living room and watched tv seriouly i was so pissed but my jaw hurt i didnt even bother to talk to him. i told him i felt like giving up its like he doesnt care what i have to say everything has to be about him and only him and i will not be in a relationship like that im sorry not happening.

I feel so lost i dont know what to do i love him alot its just he seems to be proving to me that he doesnt want to be here but he swears up and down he wants to be here but he doesnt do anything or prove he wants to be here with me hes making it seem like he came here cause i wanted him to not because he wanted to and i asked him about that then he started talking about a new life and an adventure yet i wasnt included in that. and hes talking about kids and marrige yet he cant pick up after him self im sorry its like im a babysitter of 2 instead one 1 ugh i refuse to be his maid im sorry i wont do it......does anyone know what i should do because i dont know what to do....