Life As I Know It

so as many of you know some don't i Am in Love with the most amazing guy ever. He makes me feel things i have never felt before. My life feels like an endless tornado So big and out of control yet so beautiful and amazing. He makes me feel so happy and loved. Even when im sad he always ends up making me laugh and feel like everything will be ok. Even though we are apart i have never been closer to another person like i am with him and i love it.I know that I am not perfect and my past has flaws and hole in every which direction but He does not care i have never met a man that loves me so much he doesn't care about what i have done or the things that were done to me He loves me Unconditionally and It makes me so happy yet so sad.

I sometimes feel i don't deserve a man like him like im not good enough but he tells me everyday He loves me and and nothing and no one will change that. The hardest part is not being able to see him and touch him because we don't live in the same state. But the good thing is I am able to talk to him every single day. I will be leaving my Family this year and moving with him to start a new beginning that i cant wait to start.So i wrote this poem about this amazing man i want to share the rest of my life with. I hope everyone enjoys it....

Distant

I can't see you
I can't smell you
I can't touch you And
I can't feel you

But, somehow, I know you're there
.A distance, so brutally farA feeling,
so uncomfortably near
It fills me with want and desireAnd
I realize- I must not conspire.

I cannot think and can't imagine
I fear if I do it will make me closer
While you remain out of reach
I long to hear your voice once more.
Fill my soul once more with your proper tone

I want to know feelings
I never felt beforeBut will
I ever experience your gentle touch
Or your warm breath against my neck,
As you solemnly whisper, "I love you, I need you.

"But.............Why does my heart beat so rapidly
At one little thought of you?
Why do I need for you to touch me, hold me
Press your sweet, warm body to mine?
Oh, give me pleasures I could never know....
I want you to teach me the wonders

I've never known and take me to levels
Never seen before by my quivering soul.
Suck me in, let me drown.....
It would be like a baptism...... my heart with yours.

We are two- united from the start
Meant to teach, to love, to comfort, and caress.
I could never let go of youEven though there is nothing to grasp.
Even if it fades over time

It could never fade completelyAnd, one day, when
I do see you.....I'll feel it's you, I'll know it's you
The love, pain, worries, and curiosityWill run through me once again.
Then.....

I Will see you
I Will smell you
I Will feel you
I Will taste you
And I will know it was meant to be once more